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Tuesday, February 28, 2006 @ 3:04 AM
"Help!Help!" Everything's driving me crazy. I had this bizarre dream that "he" doesn't love or care about me n my family. "He" was going to leave us when this trouble come. I told him how much we cared for him n that I dun want "him" to leave like how my heartless father left us for a bitch. I don't want history to repeat itself again. I am afraid that "he" would be like my heartless father. When i woke up from this painful dream, tears was rollin down my cheeks.. My heart was once again shattered into pieces when thinking of this dream. I don't want this to happen! I continued to cry all my heart out but i made no noise..I don't want my sister to know that i am crying. I don't want any sympathy from any one. Sometimes i feel like i am like a pathetic person or a living skeleton...It was as no one noticed my existance or presence..In other words, I am an living soul following behind the backs of my friends because I don't want to be alone.. Lonliness is always there... I am being overshadowed by others...Happiness surrounds my friends but never me...Miseries follows me wherever i go...
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"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
An April's fool who enjoyed 18 years of life and will continue to do so;
dubbed as LATE QUEEN and loving the title :D ;
has a darling old rabbit named Melody;
helplessly in love with animals except for amphibians;
hates routine night visits by beetles;
ultimately and seriously in need of a job! :) 
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