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Tuesday, February 28, 2006 @ 3:04 AM
"Help!Help!" Everything's driving me crazy. I had this bizarre dream that "he" doesn't love or care about me n my family. "He" was going to leave us when this trouble come. I told him how much we cared for him n that I dun want "him" to leave like how my heartless father left us for a bitch. I don't want history to repeat itself again. I am afraid that "he" would be like my heartless father. When i woke up from this painful dream, tears was rollin down my cheeks.. My heart was once again shattered into pieces when thinking of this dream. I don't want this to happen! I continued to cry all my heart out but i made no noise..I don't want my sister to know that i am crying. I don't want any sympathy from any one. Sometimes i feel like i am like a pathetic person or a living skeleton...It was as no one noticed my existance or presence..In other words, I am an living soul following behind the backs of my friends because I don't want to be alone.. Lonliness is always there... I am being overshadowed by others...Happiness surrounds my friends but never me...Miseries follows me wherever i go...
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006 @ 1:33 AM
Happy Valentine's Day! Today Piggy gave Li Ching a present for this special occasion. Actually he wanted to give JoJo two but i think the boys destroyed it..also dunno how they do it..Anyway, the gift that Thomas gave JoJo also broke liaox..think maybe while the guys were destroying the other present it somehow affected the the second gift too...Haix...Today never received any gift...Haix...keke...Nowadays boys are so lame and "shy"...cant stand it...I envy my sis so much...She got 1 bouquet of roses-18- , 2 other roses and 4 cute soft toys..-winnie e pooh, piglet, tigger and eeyone.. Oh my god! I am so jealous...keke...haix.. I cant hold a candle to her...
Happy Valentine's Day!
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Friday, February 10, 2006 @ 8:25 PM
These few days i feel like my brain is blocked. Everything that i say or do is not what i wanted it to be...The words or actions jux popped up...I haven even give thoughts abt it..then it jux happened...I think that my brain might be havin traffic jams...too many cars are comin but the road is blocked...there's no solutions.. There's no reversin done...How to clear my mind? Can i get my brain washed without beautiful memories being washed too? Ever since i came to this secondary school, i dun feel like being needed or cared for...I dun have really best friends who i can tell my secrets to and rely on..Everything i do is like stupid or lame or whatsoever to them...I feel like i am runnin forever and suddenly i fell..but no one cared...I asked for them to stop and help me but it seems like everyone had forgotten my existence.. Slowly i become invisible... and disappears into thin air...I am gone...
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 @ 1:52 AM
Today went to some historial places in Singapore...places where the war took place...very interesting...Took a lot of pics with my friends...although most of them doesn't want...The boys r also v annoying...keep takin pics of the gals...haix..
This pic was taken outside the tunnel at Labrador Park...looks like one family of four...say cheese!
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Sunday, February 05, 2006 @ 3:13 AM
Qns: What If You Have Millions Of Dollars, What Would You Do With The Money?
If i have millions of dollars, i would use it to buy a piece of land and build a big, beautiful house -one storey, nine rooms- , build a big and comfortable barn for the animals to stay in and a car. I will renovate and decorate the whole house nicely. The nine rooms - 1 study room, 3 bedrooms, 2 guest room, 1 entertainment room, 1 play room and 1 storeroom. - The layout of the house - 1 big hall, 1 dining area, 9 rooms, 1 kitchen and 1 area for entertainment. - Outside the house - some vegetable farm( e.g carrot, potatoes and other vegetables ), two ponds ( to rear fishes and for clean water ), grow some fruit trees and plants and also parking lots for own car and visitor's cars. The big barn - straws, animal food and anything that is necessary for the survival of the animals. - The animals in the big barn - dogs, horses, rabbits, sheeps, hens, chickens and ducks. - Everyday live a simple life. Ride the horses and play with the animals. What a wonderful life! Actually i have more things to say than all these, but i think it is too detail and i may change the plan so i will keep the whole, very detail image in my mind.
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Thursday, February 02, 2006 @ 3:08 AM
Chinese New Year is here! Everyone is in high spirits cox can receive lots of "hong pao". I am very excited and elated cox i kind of gambled and won all together about $6 plus...keke...Let's go back to my life. Life is normal, nothing special...Only the guys more irritating and childish...haix...Many times, I kept thinking about things that are unnecessary and I got confused. Things like friends, studies, personalities, impressions and emotional issues. Whether my girl friends would be more sporty, daring and open-minded? Guys more cooperative, helpful and gentlemen which makes them more adorable and well-liked by girls? Would my studies improve? Why am i always not interested in studying? People always say that we don't study for achieving good results in examinations but we study as we are interested or want to be more knowledgable. I want to be knowledgable but the teachers always make the whole lesson so boring and mind-nnumbing. A lot of things that they say or mention a few minutes ago, I wasn't able to remember what they were. I think i am suffering from short-term memory. I have completely no idea about what to do about it...Personalities...I often say the wrong words and i really hope that i could erase whatever that i have said...and sometimes i think that i am very bitchy or irritating. First impressions always matters the most... I think i always make my first impression quite good...maybe not good enough for some people...Coming to emotional issues..I don't really feel that it is very appropriate to write it all down here...as some of my friends visit this blog. I hope that i would find someone who i could share all my emotions and ideas with...
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"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
An April's fool who enjoyed 18 years of life and will continue to do so;
dubbed as LATE QUEEN and loving the title :D ;
has a darling old rabbit named Melody;
helplessly in love with animals except for amphibians;
hates routine night visits by beetles;
ultimately and seriously in need of a job! :) 
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