On 4 February. . .
just 6 days before her birthday.
hoppy passed away.
she had some health issues and i didnt take immediate actions
which resulted in her death.
yes, i am responsible for her death.
and yes, i cried loudly and my heart just hurts
when i hugged her tiny, cold body.
i regretted not spending more time with her.
i regretted not hugging her more.
now i cant hug her anymore and it hurts.

to my beloved darling, hoppy.
for the times...
...when she ran in circles around me to show her affection for me...
...when she sit there quietly (sometimes) to hear me sing...
...when she would lie down on the floor flat for me to pet her...
...when she would lean in closer to me when i blew wind at her face...
...when she would run to me when i called her name...
...when she would follow me wherever i went...
...when she would jump high in the air...
...when she would groom herself with cute little postures...
...when she would run home from the corridor after a trip outside...
...when she would behave very weirdly but cute...
and for the love she gave me...
for her tolerance towards my irresponsible behaviour.
i love her and im very glad that she was a member of our family
and would forever be.

I think im emotionally unstabilised.

I am very happy when im with my friends,

but when im not, i think of Hoppy and it just starts coming.

please refrain from asking me anything about hoppy.

you will just be making it hard for me.

she had been with me for almost 7 years.

im finding it hard letting her go.

both grandpa and maki left me already. . .

i cant take anymore.

can i have her back?