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Thursday, December 09, 2010 @ 3:45 AM
I am drained.
have been at KTPH the whole afternoon cause my grandma got admitted again.
yes, again.
i wonder how many times has it been?
it's just really sad to see her lying on that hospital bed, looking confused
and having needles inserted here and there..
she obviously don't recognize me but it's alright
i've got used to it already...
i just hope that she gets well soon :)
sitting in this empty living room alone has always allowed me to think things through
and sometimes my train of thoughts gets interrupted by Melody's laborious breathing..
everytime i hear it, it just makes me feel like as each day pass, im one step closer to losing her
and it's a fact, something that is bound to happen that i cannot evade.
even though ever since Hoppy's death, i have been mentally preparing myself for the day when she'll join her too but you'll never know it until you're put in that situation.
now that the prom is finally over, it's about time to get serious and busy
guess 2 years in JC has made me so accustomed to being busy all the time
with homework and feeling guilty for not studying that i feel pretty
uneasy about having nothing to do.
i just hope that i'll get a job that i will enjoy and be able to learn a lot from.
i dont want everyday to be boring and meaningless.
i want to do what i want.
and this is a rough list.
1. get a job
2. learn Japanese language
3. get a driver's license
4. finish reading The Time Traveler's Wife
wow, that's short!
well, it'll build up soon...
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"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
An April's fool who enjoyed 18 years of life and will continue to do so;
dubbed as LATE QUEEN and loving the title :D ;
has a darling old rabbit named Melody;
helplessly in love with animals except for amphibians;
hates routine night visits by beetles;
ultimately and seriously in need of a job! :) 
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