"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
An April's fool who enjoyed 18 years of life and will continue to do so;
dubbed as LATE QUEEN and loving the title :D ;
has a darling old rabbit named Melody;
helplessly in love with animals except for amphibians;
hates routine night visits by beetles;
ultimately and seriously in need of a job! :)
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Thursday, February 17, 2011 @ 5:33 AM
I will not go down without a fight. Not this time.
Monday, February 14, 2011 @ 4:53 AM
without a doubt, this is an opportunity that i couldnt pass up on but then again, do i have what it takes to deliver what they want? since life hasnt been all smooth-sailing for me, i am fearful of what kind of situation my decision would make me end up in. If im not as receptive as i think i am to criticism, i dont think i'll be able to pull it off. so it might be best if i dont let it get to my head and think rationally.
ta.
Tuesday, February 01, 2011 @ 4:21 AM
that was the epitome of what i said. totally.
Friday, January 28, 2011 @ 9:01 AM
Other people's lives always seemed to be so alluring.. ...so much so that it makes you want to take a bite out of it... *reaches out... and misses it!* awww shucks!
It seems to me that "Greedy" does not exist in my dictionary, the page that has been torn and tattered defines the meaning of contentment.
I've yet to grasp the meaning of contentment. I get contented momentarily when I get what i want but a second later, i realise that there's still more..
look like there's still a long way to go before "contentment" sets in for good..
find me.
ta.
Sunday, January 23, 2011 @ 6:30 AM
Today was absolutely MY DAY! I bought like so much stuffs that my heart aches but im smiling like a nut case.. my feet hurts like hell too. anyway, having been friends with Ms. Tho Li Pin for so long, it's no wonder that we have such similar taste. we like exactly the same thing and im sure Sin Yee will definitely like it too if she wasnt such a busy woman... -.- We bought like the same top but different colour and the same pair of shoes. but when we went to charles and keith, though we like the same bag, we couldnt afford to buy it together cause that would make us totally like siamese twins if we went out and totally clash from top to bottom. perhaps our similar build and a decade long friendship (OMFG! I didnt know i could put up with her for so long. i think im so wonderful :D ) has made our taste and mindset like the same! COOL~ but im not saying that going out with the others arent as good. it's just that it's really amazing when you and your friend like the same thing... i feel like a secondary school girl again. blabbing about her shopping trip. but i gotta say... retail therapy certainly makes my day and gives me the strength to last yet another week at work.
one more thing, i heard from Monica that her sec sch best friend is coming to the zoo to work! this is like WOW! i pray that she'll work in the same department as me then going to work would be less mind-numbing.. heard so much from Monica that i have so much in common with this friend of hers and this makes me very curious that i want to see it for myself.. ...just how similar we are... ta. Monday blues take me awayyy~
Friday, January 21, 2011 @ 6:54 PM
JOO has such a soulful voice :)
Cute :3
Tuesday, January 18, 2011 @ 8:12 AM
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LOVELY MELODY.
Monday, January 17, 2011 @ 7:39 AM
I really want to go back to december.
honestly.
LOVE LOVE LOVE!
Sunday, January 16, 2011 @ 12:47 AM
i've decided to un-privatise my blog since Jodi requested it.
she loves me and wants to know everything about me..
not knowing what happens in my life kills her..
im saying this on her behalf. WAHAHAHA!!
she'll probably be smiling when she seems this. and
"this is absurd!" would be what comes to her mind or
in other words "siao!" :D
Unfortunately, i've started working and the first wasn't as
smooth-sailing as i wanted it to be.
my lack of initiative has led me to be told off by my boss
though it was not like she shouted but her way of saying it
makes me feel like crying.
there's a few things that i noticed and reconfirmed regarding my self.
I'm anti-social, lack of confidence and pampered.
I get ultra upset when my boss tells me off, when others would just shrugged it off.
it's like i can't take it. i feel like crying but i hold it in
and just tell myself that i am going to do my stuff properly
so that she would have nothing to complain about.
but i wont be able to help it if she decides to make me feel useless.
there's still so much stuff to learn..
most importantly, office politics.
i dont understand but i see it happening.
lucky im just working for 6 months and i would be gone
before anyone can do anything to me.
I dont understand why people can't work in harmony.
in either case, it's gonna be tough now, since meena is gone.
she's the most lovable one and i'll miss her.
pray for my survival as I uncover the
harsh realities of the working life.
I hereby declare that i am not suitable for office jobs,
and i should do all my utmost best to avoid getting one in the future.
i should get one that allows me to do what i like,
maybe a tour guide.
then i can travel around the world!
weeeeeeeeee.....
ta.
Thursday, December 23, 2010 @ 9:01 AM
Now that i have privatised this blog, I just want to say. I hate myself for my flaws and incompetency.
Sleep eludes me, and that feeling suck. Big time. but it somehow makes me think and go through everything mentally and now, im writing it down.
It's a fact that every one has a side that just simply craves attention. and it's not bad, unless you're talking about those serial killers who murders people to get attention.. now that's a whole different story. I don't deny that i am a attention seeker. I feel extremely happy when people praise me and likewise, I feel even more extremely upset when people fervently says things that just simply hits me right on that particular spot and best thing of all, don't even realised what damage has been done even if it was for that few seconds when it seriously hurt and i just feel like crawling back into my hole. there's only two options. give that person a piece of your mind or just pretend you heard nothing and quietly let it slide because you're afraid that choosing the former would definitely change something and that something isnt what you feel is worth risking for. If only I had the courage to do what I desired and fear not of the outcome...
I am not perfect and I know the golden rule: "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" I have hurt some people with my words or my insensitivity, this is my mistake. but human nature is hard to change. I have tried to prevent myself from crossing the border and im not sure whether it has worked or not but i think that me being aware of this is already not bad if i put it in my everyday lingo. since i can't get rid of it, i'll just have to avoid it and then there will come a time when i'll be as careful as possible with my words and as sensitive as i can be with people's feelings :) Let this be a lesson and reminder to myself, to continue to abide the golden rule..
At times, I feel like im left out of everything that I want to be a part of. conversations, memories, lives. either because of my ignorance or it's just me. Not even a soul has an idea of how intense my desire is, to be part of everything and everyone. and It just seems like no one gives a shit about being in my life at all. I'm withering and everyone continues going on with their-so-interesting-that-I-am-dying-out-of-envy lives. Come on, someone's gotta go down with me. Any takers?
Random shall be my middle name for this post is random beyond random-ness.
Thursday, December 09, 2010 @ 1:45 PM
I slept at 10 yesterday and this is probably the reason why when i woke up at 4 plus i couldnt go back to sleep.. this really makes me wonder why in the past, it took me great pains to just open my eyes and get out of the bed when it's time for school. Perhaps, the thought of going to school felt repulsive and that caused me to be late for so many times *roll eyes* if i did all my stuffs now and get ready for school, i'll be there earlier than i ever did!
I'm having a slight headache now.. so there's a high possibility that i might be able to catch some sleep later on. I have my finger's crossed.
Lately I haven't been eating much, skipping meals and all that. i pray that i won't lose weight if not i'll be more paper thin than i already am! sickening :(
I'm kinda hungry now, gotta stick to my motto to do what i want whenever i like so i'll just grab something that i feel like eating now. i feel like eating a proper meal like traditional chinese dinner with rice and vege and MEAT. MEAT, is a very important food that must be present for every single meal. I love meat but sometimes i get tired of eating it that fish becomes more appealing somehow. now that the fish-fetish has subsided, meat is back on the menu. i need it now :) ta.
I am drained. have been at KTPH the whole afternoon cause my grandma got admitted again. yes, again. i wonder how many times has it been? it's just really sad to see her lying on that hospital bed, looking confused and having needles inserted here and there.. she obviously don't recognize me but it's alright i've got used to it already... i just hope that she gets well soon :)
sitting in this empty living room alone has always allowed me to think things through and sometimes my train of thoughts gets interrupted by Melody's laborious breathing.. everytime i hear it, it just makes me feel like as each day pass, im one step closer to losing her and it's a fact, something that is bound to happen that i cannot evade. even though ever since Hoppy's death, i have been mentally preparing myself for the day when she'll join her too but you'll never know it until you're put in that situation.
now that the prom is finally over, it's about time to get serious and busy guess 2 years in JC has made me so accustomed to being busy all the time with homework and feeling guilty for not studying that i feel pretty uneasy about having nothing to do. i just hope that i'll get a job that i will enjoy and be able to learn a lot from. i dont want everyday to be boring and meaningless. i want to do what i want. and this is a rough list. 1. get a job 2. learn Japanese language 3. get a driver's license 4. finish reading The Time Traveler's Wife wow, that's short! well, it'll build up soon...
Monday, December 06, 2010 @ 7:43 PM
Mary Stayed out all night
Another fabulous Korean Drama Though i hate to say it but i think this drama is much better than playful kiss perhaps too many version makes it boring.
the predictability of playful kiss has undoubtedly contributed to its low viewership.
but i sure hope this drama will continue to live up to my expectation.
this drama has me torn between Jang Geun Suk and Kim Jae Wook!
but Kim Jae Wook suits his role in coffee prince more.
there's a 流浪汉 kind of handsome.
this is a must-watch drama though there's some parts which are not logical to me
but still it's a both thumbs up :)
After Jia Zheng's fervent persuasion for me to watch S.M the ballad, i finally watched it... repeatededly because it's really amazing! their voices are incredibly good that it makes all other male singers embarrassed of their own.. Koreans seem to be exceptionally good at singing.. on average i mean. perhaps their ancestors used to sing all day and they inherited their beautiful voices. i should stop before envy gets the better of me! :D
Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 10:01 AM
Im currently writing an outline for my GP essay .. TOTALLY BRAIN DRAINING.. so had to do something to perk up.
Ever since me and my uncle had our own holocaust on the ants which had a colony on the wall behind the cupboard (i have no idea how much they defy gravity until now) , the remaining survivors seems to be pretty pissed off and keen on making a revolt. Though im pretty sure the colony has been wiped off from history, there must have been one or two that escaped and perhaps use the KAGEBUNSHINOJITSU to take over the world (which is my house). Yes, indeed, they have made it clear that it's war they want when i find them crawling on my arms when im watching tv; invading my personal space and disturbing me when im using the computer and the worst of it all, taking over my leftover food!!! (which happens to be my favourite dish and i intend to finish it when im hungry again..unforgivable pests!) now that they have incurred the wrath of the GREAT ME, if it's war they want then it's war they shall get!
I SHALL SHOW NO MERCY AND BLOOD SHALL BE SHED! (though they're too tiny for there to be any blood) Nonetheless, RAWR!!!
Saturday, September 18, 2010 @ 12:44 AM
Jo Kwon - The Day I confessed
SWEET~!
Saturday, September 11, 2010 @ 12:43 AM
kATINA PASIAN - Slow Motion
Saturday, August 21, 2010 @ 1:39 AM
N I C H K H U N <3
Saturday, July 31, 2010 @ 4:05 AM
sometimes it just seemed so totally stupid that you're desperately trying to get back something that you know is gone forever..
was i asking too much? if that's the case, give it to me straight in the face. i'd rather die than suffer.
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
An April's fool who enjoyed 18 years of life and will continue to do so;
dubbed as LATE QUEEN and loving the title :D ;
has a darling old rabbit named Melody;
helplessly in love with animals except for amphibians;
hates routine night visits by beetles;
ultimately and seriously in need of a job! :) 
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